140411_kp_mauna_kea_P1010046_150_68I just decided to not title this one, since I've no idea what will come out.

I've been feeling EXTREMELY drained and "out of it" feeling since returning from Kīlauea yesterday. And just before I left, one of my chickens got chased by a dog that is now living here, and I had no idea if she'd survived. I'm going through thoughts of her being killed, of why the h wasn't the dog leashed up, why would a dog owner be so irresponsible to let their dog run free... and all that.

Turns out, Kapo (meaning dark chicken) is alive and well.

There's a lot of internal "what the hell am I doing here" and "What direction am I to go" things going on now. Here i am in the arenas of Earth news type stuff, Kingdom of Hawaii stuff, Galactic stuff, and Energetic stuff. That's a hell of a lot of "stuff".

And this possible O'ahu trip coming up. I honestly do NOT look forward to it, if I do go. Sleeping in my car (so I can come and go at a moment's notice), then doing things at night or early AM when energies are more calm and transmutable and traffic is light. And trying to find a place to sleep in the car has been a pisser on O'ahu, in the past. So many cars and people and streetlights.

But part of me knows I must go. There are things I can do there, and only I can do, because it is my kuleana (Sacred Path).

So I am holding myself ready to do what needs to be done, and one step at a time, releasing fears about what "might" happen.

Sometimes I may write or talk a "High positive and uplifting message", but when it comes down to my now moment, I'm not quite there in that "High positive and uplifting space". I am in the human body.

Well, enough of that. Aloha, Kp